It was just over a year ago (April 12 to be exact) that I failed the beep test and decided to start running. With the encouragement of Jenn Foulser who was working with me at PRSS and Denise Wilson, the PE teacher who allowed me to run with her class, I set a goal of running 5k at the Cannery Run in September. I managed to do that in 32:05 which I thought was pretty good.
My next goal was 10K and I was working on that until my retina detached and I had to take almost three months off. Fortunately, the Learn2Run program started just as my eye was healing enough to begin running again.
(Momentary digression: I had no idea what the Learn2Run program would do or how I would respond. Turns out it was one of the best decision I could have made. The trainers are not just good runners with a program that we can follow. They are exceptionally knowledgeable and incredibly enthusiastic and supportive. On top of that, running with a group motivates me far more than I would have imagined. There is always somebody in front of me that drives me to keep going. If they don't stop, then I won't stop. If they do stop, then I want to pass them.)
We are almost finished the program and the goal has been from the beginning to participate in the 10k Glory Days in May. I am certain that I will be able to do that. Last week, I completed the 8k run at the Rupert Half Marathon (in 52:19) and I had no trouble running for an hour on Tuesday. So here is where my new goals kick in.
Whenever I attempted running in the past, I had no idea of pacing. I would burn out early, get discouraged and quit. (Another digression: An advantage of Learn2Run is the forced pacing that the program follows. We started by running for ONE minute and walking for two. I remember when running 3 minutes and walking one was a big chore. But starting slow and building up has made a 60 minute run manageable.)
Now I have a pretty good pace (for me.) I manage about 6.5 minutes for each kilometer. That's what I did at the Cannery Run over 5k and that's what I did last week over 8k. So my first goal is to improve on that pace. Not by a lot because I don't want to burn out, but I think there is room to improve.
And to make this a goal a real challenge (for me) is to aim for beating my age in a 10K race. I am almost 61 so I have to finish in under 61 minutes. I am not sure I have given myself enough time for this year's race. At my current pace, I should finish around 65 minutes. But even if I don't do it this year, each year I stay alive allows me another chance and also another minute. Next year, I will have 62 minutes to reach my goal. Anyway, that is goal #1.
Goal number #2 might be unattainable, but I want to at least try. If I say it to enough people (and this blog has at least a couple of readers) then I will feel obligated to follow through. I am going to see how much time through the summer I have for training but I would like to complete the half marathon at the Cannery Run in September. At my current pace, I would need about 2 hours and 15 minutes.
So to make sure that it is on the record, here is Goal #2: "I would like to complete a half marathon before I die. It might be what kills me but I'll give it a shot just the same."
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Sunday, April 8, 2012
is sum it all up
I am not even sure how I can summarize the four
gospels. First of all, if you don’t believe in a god,
then it is difficult to believe in the son of a god, and the gospels did not
convince me that there was any reason to change my mind in that regard.
The story isn’t bad if I can ignore the fact that it is told
four times and all slightly differently.
Combining all four gospels to make one story would be the best way to
go. I am sure it has been done before
in written form and it has certainly been done that way for movies and TV.
I have no doubt that Jesus was an inspired man who had a deep
faith in his god and wanted to spread a message of love and forgiveness. He also talked about a Kingdom and
resurrected bodies after death. For some
reason, he became a threat and was crucified.
I certainly don’t have a problem with most of the teachings
that Jesus passes on. Love your enemy
as well as your neighbour, turn the other cheek, judge not lest ye be judged,
casting the first stone, the prodigal
son, the good Samaritan, etc. are all worth following.
All of us have our own beliefs. As someone who doesn’t believe in god or an
afterlife, then Jesus’ teaching about the Kingdom and the resurrection and the
way to reach god don’t mean a lot to me.
In the latter instance, if I did believe in a god, then I would assume
that there would be many methods to reach that god. I can’t imagine an all-powerful, all-knowing,
god limiting our ways to approach him. The
Jews, Sikhs, Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists can all reach their own “kingdom” with
whatever all-encompassing being they believe in without the need of a man who
lived 2000 years ago.
And I actually find the death of Jesus as some kind of
redeeming feature almost creepy. He died
for us. He died to set us free. He died to take away our sins. Did Jesus have to be crucified for all of
that to happen? Could Jesus have lived
to a ripe old age and still have meaning for us. I really don’t get this need for a
sacrificial lamb.
All of us, whether we believe in a god or not, can reach some
kind of inner peace with ourselves by leading decent lives, by trying to make a
difference, and by being content with what we have. Personally, I don’t see the need for an
afterlife. I would like to think that all of us can have a meaningful effect on
others. Hopefully, people will want to emulate our
good qualities but perhaps someone will be motivated to improve by observing
our flaws. It doesn’t matter.
I am not sure why we feel the need for an afterlife. There is birth and there is death. We have a shot at doing something and then
someone else has their turn. I
have no problem accepting that.
is know the rest of the story (John 20 - 21)
John’s is the strangest, most complicated gospel so it
shouldn’t be a surprise that his telling of the resurrection should be
different. In the other three gospels
Mary Magdalene and another woman arrive at the tomb and in various tellings see
that the stone has been removed and that Jesus is not there. They go to tell the disciples. In John, Mary Magdalene is alone and when she
sees that the rock has been removed, she runs to tell Peter and "the disciple
that Jesus loved" (the one at the cross mentioned). Given the various minor differences in other
scenes this shouldn’t be a big deal.
But...
Peter and the other disciple run to the tomb. The one
that Jesus loved gets there first but he doesn’t go in. Peter goes in and sees the tomb is
empty. Then the disciple “who got there
first” goes in and believes. Peter and
the disciple return home. Why this
emphasis on the unnamed disciple?
At this point, Mary Magdalene looks in the tomb and sees two
angels. When she turns around she sees
Jesus but she does not recognize him.
When she finally realizes that it is Jesus, he tells her to tell the
disciples that he is returning to his Father.
She does so, but Jesus doesn't return to his Father. He meets with the disciples and tells them
that if they forgive people’s sins the people will be forgiven.
A week later he again returns to the disciples (through a
locked door) and this time Thomas is present.
He didn’t believe the disciples when they told him about the first
visit. He wanted proof. Jesus tells Thomas to touch his hands and
his side and believe. Then Jesus says to
Thomas, “Do you believe because you see me?
How happy are those that believe and don’t see.” Finally, Jesus returns to the disciples a
third time and helps them catch 153 fish.
Jesus then asks Peter if he loves him and Peter replies that
he does. Jesus asks him three times
(probably symbolic of the three denials) and Peter responds that he does. Jesus then warns Peter of Peter’s own death.
Finally we learn the identity of the other disciple – the
one that Jesus loved, the one that Jesus said would now be Mary’s son, the one
that reached the tomb in a race with Peter.
It is the gospel writer John, "the one that told of these things, and the
one that wrote everything down. And we
know what he said is true.”
The last line is interesting to me. It sounds like the writer of this gospel is
not John but perhaps a disciple of John who is retelling the events that John
told. It is also interesting because
there seems to be some attempt at making John more important than the other
gospel writers and the other disciples. In Luke there is an argument between the disciples about which one is the greatest and in Mark, the brothers James and John ask to be placed on either side of Jesus in the Kingdom. Now, in this gospel we have John being declared the one Jesus loved most.
John is the one that Jesus told to be Mary’s son. John is the first to reach the empty
tomb. And John’s gospel is true.
In his letter to Theophilus that begins his gospel, Luke says
that many stories have been written and that he wants Theophilus to know the
truth. John’s gospel also wants to
ensure that people know that it is the truth.
Matthew mentions the Jews bribing the Romans to tell that the body of
Jesus was stolen while the guards slept. I am wondering what stories are out there that
were not considered the truth.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
is learn the name of the disciple (John 18 - 19)
There are similarities and differences between the ending of
John and the other gospels. There is no
last supper although Jesus did mention earlier that he was the bread of
life. I can’t remember if he
symbolically eats bread at that time. Jesus
is betrayed by Judas and denied by Peter.
He is questioned by the Jewish authorities and sent to
Pilate and Pilate cannot find anything wrong with Jesus. The big difference at least for me in the
Pilate scene is when Pilate asks if Jesus is a king. Jesus replies that his kingdom is not of this
world, that he was brought here to bear witness to the truth. And Pilate asks, “What is truth?” Unfortunately Jesus does not answer; at least
John does not provide an answer. I for
one would have appreciated an answer.
Pilate asks the crowd what they want him to do and they
demand that Jesus be crucified. Instead
he has Jesus whipped and dressed with the purple robe and a crown of
thorns. Pilate again brings Jesus out
and tells the crowd that he can see nothing wrong but they continue to demand
his death. Pilate becomes frightened
when he learns that Jesus has been called the son of God and tries to find a
way to set him free. But the crowd also
taunts Pilate by claiming that he would not be a friend of the emperor if he
set free somebody who claimed to be a king.
Pilate finally relents and Jesus is sent to be crucified.
All of the gospels have Pilate very unwilling to have Jesus
killed. But, John seems to be
emphasizing the political side of the controversy more than the other gospels
did. I would have to reread those scenes
in the other gospels but memory tells me that the other gospels emphasize the
threat Jesus had for the religious authorities rather than the political
leaders.
When Jesus is crucified, “King of the Jews” is written on
the cross. The Jewish authorities want
it to be rewritten to say that this man claimed to be king of the Jews. Pilate refuses. Again this must be another nod to the idea
that Jesus did have power over the Jews and the Jews are responsible for the
death of their king.
In the other gospels,women (notably Mary and Mary Magdalene) are present at the cross. In
John, there is also a disciple. The
conversation from the cross is very different.
Jesus does not call out to god about being forsaken nor does he ask god
to forgive the people. Instead, he tells
his mother that the disciple with her is now her son. (More on this tomorrow.)
John emphasizes that Jesus is definitely dead. When the guards go to break the legs of Jesus
and the two bandits (their only mention) to speed up the death, they realize
that Jesus is already dead. Instead they
pierce his side. John adds that these
actions (not breaking the legs and stabbing the side) fulfill old
scripture.
Joseph of Arimathea takes the
body and places it in the tomb.
Friday, April 6, 2012
is to get the concrete from the abstract (John 10 - 17)
Jesus continues to emphasize that we must believe in him to
gain eternal life and he uses his miracles as evidence that he comes from
God. In fact at one point he says that
he and God are one. The people are
outraged that he calls himself God; they say he is only a man.
Before Jesus brings Lazarus back to life he tells Martha
that he is the resurrection and the life and that all who believe in him will
not die. And the Jewish authorities are
upset when Lazarus is brought back to life because then people will start believing
in Jesus and the Romans, for some reason, would destroy the temple. They plot not only to arrest and kill Jesus
but they also want to kill poor Lazarus.
Then, after predicting his own death and suffering, Jesus
gives the new commandment which is to love one another. In fact he says that if you love one another
people will know that you are his followers.
It is a good sentiment. Maybe it’s not always possible but it’s worth
trying nonetheless.
But this is followed by abstract messages of truth and
belief. When I started reading the
gospels I wanted to try to see what was there.
And John is very hard. I can read
what is said but they are just words on a page.
Riddles. Love and forgiveness are
abstract for sure but most people have some kind of concept that goes with
those words. Belief is meaningless
unless we have a word or a concept that we can believe. Jesus says “believe in God and believe in
me. I am the way and the truth and the
life. I will prepare a place in my
father’s house. If you ask for anything
in my name it will be given.”
He goes on to say that if we love him we will obey his
commandments and the Holy Spirit will enter us and teach us everything and help
us remember everything that Jesus told us.
He also tells us that he is in
the father and that we are in Jesus and that Jesus is in us. And then he says that the greatest love a
person can have for his friends is to give his life for them. And then he says that he is our friend.
All this is said just before the arrest and trial of Jesus.
This is the briefest of summaries and I am cheating because
I am not writing about everything. But
my problem remains. None of those words
move me in the slightest. They may move
others but they don’t move me.
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